Pressure Creates Growth
For me, my biggest fear was not flying to another country.
It was not stepping into a culture that was unknown to me. It was a fear of messing up what God calls me to do; it was a fear of obeying but then doing it badly.
Our journey from YWAM Yosemite to Bangkok, Thailand took 40 hours. It was long and included a stint in a Chinese hotel. This was an adventure but that fear was still present. However, God kept saying, "Come to Me, spend time with Me, and I will give you rest.” And every time I would spend time with Him an indescribable peace would come.
The time we spent in Bangkok was a time of settling in and orientation to the culture. We also said goodbye to our other YWAM Yosemite team which was strange. They traveled to the Northern city of Chiang Mai while we boarded a bus to Roiet in the Issan region of North East Thailand.
12 hours later we found ourselves being welcomed by an extremely loving family. They treated us with great hospitality and we were able to jump straight into ministries.
We have been staying in a leper colony called Selaphum, 1 of 13 leper colonies in Thailand. The family we are staying with run a church and lead much more in their community as well; they are so inspiring. They have financial struggles and yet they work extra hard so they can get by and then give away any extra that they earn.
Our ministries have mainly involved doing labour, such as planting rice, for their ministries. As a team, we have asked God how this is helping in the spread of the Gospel. During times of prayer, God has been saying that this is why we are here. We may never see the fruit of what we are doing but this is what He wants us to do: to support and help this church who are already spreading the gospel and seeing change in their community. The fruit is coming.
Through all of this God has shown me there is nothing to fear because He is with me. He would never ask me to do something and then leave me to embarrass myself or to mess up. He has been asking me to step out but He never leaves me there alone. He always equips me and brings me peace.
I was asked to preach on Sunday at the church. I had a lot of fears about this but the more time I spent with God the more that peace came. The sermon came together really well and I was able to stand and preach with confidence, something that was only possible because God never left me. Through this stepping out I have grown so much in my trust in Him and I now have fewer fears concerning ministries.
Whenever God calls me to step out of my comfort zone, He goes with me and my comfort zone grows. God is constantly calling me further into the unknown and I'm excited to see what He has in store for me and how He is going to use this team to change Thailand and make a way for Him.